im not beautiful enough

Fri, 03 Sep 2004 16:42:22 GMT

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today was a SWEET ASS day.

Fri, 03 Sep 2004 00:49:42 GMT

hey the last 3 days have been tennis matches. so far we're undefeated.
today after school me ang ang and lindsay met up with Paul and Chase. they hung out with us all durring tennis. it was sweet. even though mrs. jones didnt think so. lol. yeah then we went to the soccer game with them. haha ang wanted me to change behind the bleachers infront of everyones house and car. lol. noway. so i used someone on the teams car. the game was sweet?.. even though i deff didnt watch. hahah T-REXs lmao. yesterday ash sprained her ankle pretty bad. she was on crutches today and me ash ang and lids got to ride the elevator with her. yeah well i took off work tomorrow so i could go to the show. my mom told me they are closing for real this time. remodeling. phst. well im excited. life has been good to me lately.
<3
Paul has THEE sweetest eyes ever.
Chase got pantsed today.
lol.

COMMENT

..When you step to the ledge of all the light you have left, and you take that first step into the darkness of the unknown, you might believe one of two things will happen. There will be something solid for you step upon, or you will learn how to fly..

Tue, 31 Aug 2004 01:27:05 GMT

Pick ANY 10 LJ users on your friends list without revealing their names say something about (or to) each one of them. Never reaveal who is what.

1* you are the greatest person ever. i can go to you with anything or go to you because i know youll put a smile on my face. i love you. you've been there for me since ive known you. i love you like a freakin sister. i can be my total self around you and look like an ass and you dont care... youve never judged me or hated me for something stupid.and thats why i can trust you with anything.

2* i hate how things are between us. I want them to be different, but i know they never will be... thats just the way it goes. all ways has and always will.

3* in general i hate you, but to your face act like we're cool. but there is nothing i can do or will do about it because its a waste of my stinkin' time.

4* i miss you so much. we used to be so close, but we sorta went diff ways.i hate it.. and you claim you do to. but neither of us try with everything we have to change it. so i think we dont care that much. i thnk what i miss most, were the memories we could make.

5* i loooooove you so much. im glad we've gotten closer. we have so many insiders, its deff. not funny.youre like a sister from another mister. i cant stand when were parted for a long time... you know what they say.. PIC( this one shouldnt be too hard lol )

6* you a such a suck up i cant even take it !! its the only way you get friends.

7* after all is said and done.. i can talk to you because i feel youll understand, but i dont always feel that i can trust you with what i say. i do love oyu though and hope we become really close.

8* i deff want to have sex on the beach... all night long.

9* i love you and miss you. bff.. obviously didnt mean forever this time. we had so many great times.. ive never had as much fun as i did when i was around you... even though sometimes we got in our fights.. i didnt care. thats how good of friends we were.

10* i regret some things ive said/done to you, but whats in the past. should stay in the past. im very sorry and i want to start over. i hate us not trying to be friends... we see each other alot, but we ignore each. other. you think it would happen, but for some reason or another.. it doesnt.

today ash and ang came over after school. it was a marathon to the bus. after we went to wendy's. pual and mike came. saweeet. and then dan cam and ate with us. it was a party. there were like a billion other ppl from school there. after we went to my house and watched cheaper by the dozen. then we went to Marathon and get beverages. After that we walked to practice. We saw our tennis shirts. swweeeet. After practice Ang's mom drove me home. we saw a kid on the side of the road that got hit by a truck. it was so scary. people were like callin 911 and telling him not to move. my heart like sank. i didnt even wanna look. when i got home i got ready and went to my cousin's lil birthday bash. you know how i do. then im here. jsut got all my stuff ready for tomorrow. i guess i shall go now.

hey ashley.. i got ya nasty!
; ) would you like to pick the wedgie out of my gludious maximus?
haha.

I <3 Ang.. yeah shes sweet i guesss.
; ) : )

-Maaaaaaaaaandi.

ps. dude my freakin lunch got switched to B. i could have CRIED when i friggen found out. maybe i will change my sched. UGH

i dont want sympathy.. i just want to get this off my chest.

Sun, 29 Aug 2004 15:22:01 GMT

i have been making myself feel SO shitty lately. i always feel like im freakin left out... well probably because i am. but i hate it. i cant even describe how.. stupid it makes me feel. i seriously have NO LIFE. and i feel like my friends could care less about anything at all that i have to say. i never have fun... nobody invites me to have fun. i hate my life. im not going to even try anymore.. id die for my friends...the whoel 4 friends i actually have. but would they even go out their way for me?.. no. well atleast thats how i feel.

so im done. with everything.
i hate myself. i hate us. i hate my life.

i dont care.. if we never speak again

Fri, 27 Aug 2004 01:03:33 GMT

Somerset is pretty cool. very big. my feet hurt from walking.
walked around it like 50 million times.
i seen paul : ) that was cool
i got a sexy sterling silver neckalce with a diamond "A" pendant from one of those neat jewelry places... i think it was Helzberg.
got a few things from Hollister and Abercrombie.
make-up from Victoria's Secret.
Lilu.. and a necklace from Claire's.
im very pissed that EVRYONE is at the V game right now.. and im NOT.
oh well : (
.. i always feel left out. nothing new there.
well i have to go.
just thought id let you know my day.
</3>i just dont feel like having fun.</b> and will anybody care that im not going? no. because that's just the way my life goes...

one day... everybody will know my name.

Wed, 25 Aug 2004 23:21:06 GMT

scratch my last entry..
im going to update. obviously.
so im all excited for our FIRST match right..?
well the effers DONT EVEN SHOW UP.
... who does that? I guess they forgot to put us on their schedual?.. which was made a freakin YEAR AGO. oh well, douche bags. So we all just played each other.
Tomorrow I'm going to Somerset. very excited. at least i know that will always be there. hah.
Friday the team is going out to one V girls house to go swimming on their lake and such.. shall be fun.
and Saturday is our inner-tournament. i hate playing singles. grrrrrr.
well i guess i should go..
It's like freakin bizzilion degrees out.
im salty : )

<333
comment.

Mon, 23 Aug 2004 16:26:00 GMT

i never know how to start these...
hmm.
well up north was fine. we went on the boat when it was like freackin 60^o out.
and it was very windy. haha i didnt catch ANY fish.
it was cool just to get out of the house and be lazy.
Sunday i went driving.. Im deff getting better : )
i hate this jounral.. nobody EVER comments.
so.. until i get more commenters.. I'm dont with this jounral
CRRRRRRRRAAAAAAAAAAAAAPPPPP.
<3

pee-E-aay-see-E

... yeah, you might want to comment now.

Fri, 20 Aug 2004 00:06:12 GMT

i redid the journal again...
i can never keep it the same for more than a week.
i know.. im gay : )
tomorrow im going up north...
i love it up there.
saturday we're going out on the boat if it's nice.
if not.
we're going to the masion to swim.
either way.. fun.
did i mention.. FUDGE!?
well i gotta go pack.
i l u
<3

ang-mallo-ash.. i'll miss you guys
; )

if i was to die.. what would be the last thing you would tell me?

My Journal Is PIMP

Sat, 14 Aug 2004 13:25:57 GMT

Hello.
I've decided to make my journal public again. There really was no point to having it Friends Only.. because people were getting confused... i don't know how, but they just were. The entries that are friends only already.. will just stay that way because there are too many to change. Maybe another day.
I just though you all should know that.

Yay!!
Today is my birthday. 15.. Kind of a wierd age.. can't do much, but it just sounds cool. I'm growing up, but I'm still young. Wow.. i think that was thee dumbest thing I've ever said. Later today Me, Mallo, and Ang are going up to the courts.. and then to the scrimmage/game thingy. Then Ashley is maybe spending the night. That would be cool. VERY cool. I really wanted to go to the tennis practice today, but I didn't know if anyone else was going.. so I just didn't. In a little bit me and my mom are going to cash my check and go to the store.

yeah , well i should go.
leave me birthday comments!
Happy Birthday To Me!!!